Oi. This weather is terrible. Gray skies mirror themselves in my mood.
And that whole disgusting situation with those two girls, those cousins. I heard about it in Biology, because one of the girls involved is in that class and was absent because of it. At first I just thought, "That's what she gets for being like that". But that was so rude of me, so unmerciful. She probably just doesn't know any better, or was raised to not have any set of values. It's disgusting, yes, as are the things she talks about and does and fills her life with, but she herself isn't. She's just a person, like anyone else. Not disgusting, not gross. Just flawed, like everyone else including myself.
It's funny how even after a whole bible study on not judging people and being merciful in your thoughts, I find myself doing just that so easily. Walking down the hallways you hear snippets of conversation and you automatically judge them by whatever they're saying. You file away into your head just what type of person they are, how much better than them you are, what they're wearing, why they're wearing it, the list goes on an on and all of these assumptions are made based on a few words and a half a second of looking at someone. I think we do that because judging people is easier than actually getting to know them and trying to understand why they are as they are and why they do all the things they do. We sit on our little pedestals and look down the bridge of our nose and write people off, because we're just so much better than them, aren't we? We're just so superior to them. I mean, look at how they try to be shocking with their crazy hair style, or look at how they put themselves on display by wearing short skirts, look at that ugly outfit or that guy they're walking with or whatever. Whatever there is to hate, whatever there is to condemn, we do.
We're so unforgiving of everyone around us and yet we're constantly needing the opinion of those that we degrade to make us feel good about ourselves. Even if you say, "I don't care what people think of me," you do. There is no such thing as non-conformist, as not caring what people think. When you try to go against the grain or whatever you're still going against what people care most about, thereby basing yourself on what people dislike. You care. We all care enough to judge but still want to be judged in favor of.

Are we, and by that I mean the entire human race, so prone to that because we're just bad at heart? Is it because we're over-concerned with the opinion of others? Because we long to be different and yet accepted at the same time? I'm just asking, I don't have any clue as to what the answer may be. I think it'd be arrogant of someone to assume they do have it figured out, to think they have some transcendent understanding of all man kind. But then that's judging, isn't it?